At some point you really have to tell yourself "this is not an experience I want to keep having" and stop entertaining things that don't benefit you in any way. Walking to what brings joy is going to require you to let that ideological stuff go. We a
Rest your nose against mine and let yourself go, breathe deeply until my essence is imprinted on you, my mark doesn't fade so easily...it haunts you, it dominates you, it reminds you who you belong to...