Faltering is now balance. Mistakes are now perfection. The wrong direction has become the right direction. You know that, at the core, it's not the abstinence that's affected you, but the person who put it there. You know that, at the core,
The defeated adventurer held onto the hope of being rescued from the Orc den, but day after day she began to realize her fate will be nothing more than a fucktoy and breeding bitch for her captor. (Shirami)